I am starting to get my life back on the right track after a divorce and ugliness from my former marriage, plus a serious illness with my fiancee's son.  Now, because of my need to be everythig to the people I care about, I have put myself in a position where I cannot afford to have Christmas, not even Christmas dinner, for my family. I am behind in my regular bills, and I have nothing left once I pay some of them to buy food or gifts for my children.  I take full responsibility for the situation I am in, but I would appreciate any help you are willing to give me to help me continue to get on the right track without sacrificing this special holiday for my family.  My niece has recently lost all hearin gin one ear and 25% in the other and is like the little sister my boyus never had.  Helping her parents by being able to have dinner at my house would be wonderful.  My kids know I can't afford gifts, but it would be nice to surprise them.  It would also be wonderful to make my fiancee's son's last Christmas be a very special one.  Please help me.

I recently went through a divorce and have tried to maintain the same lifestyle for my children.  Now I have nothing left.  I'm not blaming anyone but myself, but I'm in a position now that is pulling me under.  I feel completely hopeless and like I am absolutley no good to my children.  I have ruined my credit...which wasn't great to start with...and my ex is using all of this against me.  My oldest is starting college and I have no way to help him.  His father is financially secure and pits the kids against me.  I just need help to get back on my feet.  I can't even buy groceries at this point and have completely given up all hope of being able to dig myself out of hole I have created.  I just need to get to ground zero...I'm not looking for a "gift" to zero everything out.  I just need to be able to catch up and make myself become responsible.  If you can help that would be wonderful.

maringlese@charter.net